Sunday, August 3, 2008

Giving up the Boob

I need to start this off by saying there may be some embarrassing talk in this post so if you're easily embarrassed read no further. You've been warned!
I have recently decided to quite nursing, okay so the decision was pretty much made for me. I was going to quit anyway at 24 months but Gideon got an infection in his mouth and transferred it to my breasts. Needless to say it was way to painful to continue the whole nursing thing. Whenever he nursed it felt like he was a hoover vacuum trying to suck my whole nipple off. Yes, it was uncomfortable. I have to say that I was/am disappointed. It has been really hard to go cold turkey for both him and me (all of you nursing mothers out there know why). It makes me sad because he is my last baby and I guess I wanted to keep him that way for a little while longer.
The infection has played a terrible toll on my breasts. I can't stand to have anything touch them, so when Gideon gets on my lap and pushes on my chest I want to scream and throw him off. I do refrain from that. It has been a very hard experience for Gideon. Even after a week he still asks for "boobie" I wish that there was an easier way to ween that doesn't traumatize the poor kid. He has been very clingy and cuddly which is okay with me because I thought he might hate me. I'm glad to know that I'm still his 'mama', and that he will still love me.
Weening has not been a fun experience, but I wouldn't give up the nursing experience for anything. I have been really fortunate to be a "milk cow" when it comes to nursing my kids. I feel really lucky that that has been an option for me, and that I've been able to do it for as long as I have.


shanda said...

The same thing happened to me with Jared he got thrush and I stopped nursing him for 2-3 weeks maybe more and then my breasts were healed and I started nursing him again! I was so happy I could continue nursing.